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I just had a thought.
Jason Behr would have made the best fucking Gambit EVER!
Damn you, casting director, why didn't you think of him? I'm tired of him only making shitty B-grade horror films; his beautiful face needs to be all up in the mainstream.
Now where the hell did my Behr bondage userpic go? argh

I get to deliver pies in 30! yay.
good day. such a good day.
Neville! I need a good Neville icon

I've been officially for a whole week now. Still feelin' fine.
I've been cooking meals for myself like crazy. I couldn't do it when we were together because he didn't like anything that wasn't deep fried, and I prefer slightly healthier foods...smothered in cheese.
I do miss frolicking around the house in my drawers, but I'm doing great considering, ya know, the whole "this was it he was the one" thing. Joy!

One more 12 hour day of work and I'm off for 3! I need some 4th plans.

Kickboxing tomorrow after work (my fat ass will be on the ground within 5 minutes I'm sure)

Nice weekend alone with my beloved little Bowser.

the home page says it's been 21 weeks since I updated. wow.
I'm single now, obese, still have a job, and just finished reading the Harry Potter series.
Where do I go from here

How the hell did I miss Brad Renfro dying? It happened the week before Heath Ledger, and somehow I missed it. Weird. I was so cradle-robber hot for him back in the day, ooooooh boy. Poor kid, the articles I just read said he was off the drugs and had gone through detox and such. oh well. He had potential to be a good grown-up actor.

The Simpsons has sure gone downhill in the past few years. It's just not that funny anymore. Well we decided to tivo the episode that came on last night, and it's my new favorite. My previous favorite was the one where Lisa spoke to the fortune teller, and then we got to see the story of her and Hugh in the future. It was the subtle little things in the episode that made it absolutely hilarious to me--ex. future homer's shirt was like the "futuristic" George Jetson's shirt. FUNNY!

The 90s episode last night--the Simpson's version of Crisis on Infinite Earths to fix the continuity and catch up the past 20 years and to right the present--was the funniest thing EVER to me. It was again the subtle parodies in the episode that made it so funny. I know it was a gross dive into the 90s "nostalgia" trend to boost ratings or re-attract lost viewers, but they won me over anyway. I can't even get into what little parts of it made it so great, but of course the poking fun at all of the things about the 90s dearest to my heart made it that much more enjoyable. I probably won't watch The Simpsons next week, but at least I have a new favorite episode to watch every time I see that it's coming on tv.

I was kinda scared that all this time Chris and I are spending together would make us tired of each other, but it's the opposite! I miss him MORE when he's gone now. He actually said he missed me yesterday when he went to work and I stayed home. aaaaw. I love my boy.

On January 21st (that's a Sunday) my stepmother is having me a housewarming/30th party at my house in the afternoon. I'm guessing we'll do cocktails and fingerfoods or something. Now I need to decide if that's going to be MY housewarming, or if I should do a Friday/Saturday night crazy drinking housewarming. OR maybe this'll be my housewarming, and then I'll have a regular drink crazy on a Friday/Saturday night kind of party at a later date that will be the "break in the new house" party. Yea, that sounds good.

Everyone's welcome to come to the housewarming on Sunday Jan 21st in the afternoon. Registry at Target and amazon.com and kaboodle.com if you're looking for anything to buy.

Now I think I'mma bake some cookies instead of cleaning or unpacking

I just had my offer on a house accepted! I'm buying a house---all by my little self
It's fabulous. I love it even though it's not my dream house; it's my first house. Small yard for not cutting, 2 garage for protecting my cars that have been exposed to the elements since I got them, 3 bedrooms for filling with junk, 2.5 bathrooms to violate, and a big ass kitchen with an island. pics are on my myspace. I hope the link works. Within the next 2 weeks I have to have a termite inspection and a regular ol' home inspection to make sure I'm not buying something broken and worthless. My big hurdle is coming up with another $500 in earnest money. boooo hiss.

http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewPicture&friendID=55393141&albumId=1365860


I'm also pimping my amazon housewarming list. I've never had a house, so aside from the appliances and improvements to be made here and there, I'll need a bunch of stuff to fill my pretty new kitchen (that I will promptly paint to match my desired theme) and on which to place prepared food. Here's the link

The shipping address is valid before and after the move, so don't worry about my stuff getting lost. I will have a big housewarming party, but I'm not sure when because I will be moving around the holidays, and my friends are hard enough to get to come out to socialize as it is---it's a billion times worse around the holidays. I thought about doing a Housewarming/Thanksgiving/Christmas/Birthday extravaganza since they will all take place nearly in a month's time

I was looking on ebay for some items because I love shopping online. Most of what I need I probably can't find at wal-mart, but I can pick up at the local comic book store...anyway
I was looking on ebay and these fucking asshole sellers have found another way to rob you blind. They used to cleverly disguise extra charges and higher profits in shipping costs so ebay can't use that $$ in their commission they take out of everything you sell. Clever, and assholey. If I find a seller that's charging more than the actual cost to ship the item, I will go to another seller. Unfortunately all sellers are overcharging for shipping now so I just kinda stopped ebaying.

And then it got worse. Today I was looking for stuff and these assholes are charging "handling" fees in addition to shipping fees. These said "handling" fees are to cover the cost of boxes and shipping materials...in addition to the ridiculous inflated shipping price. BULLSHIT!
This one dude, to ship a tiny package (less than a pound and rectangular) wants an $8 handling fee...dude, it's called free Priority Mail box from the post office. I guarantee you that that package will be shipped in a free box or a cut up home made box from Costco or something. That's crap. He's going to charge you a fee well over the cost of Priority Mail and top it off with a bogus handling charge. The amazon sellers are starting to do that too. I love amazon for its free shipping over $25, but now the non amazon amazon sellers are charging like $5.50 handling fee for the shipment plus $3 for each item. If it's so much trouble to ship something that you have to charge an additional fee equal to minimum wage to ship a single item...when that's your JOB is to ship stuff people buy from you-find something else to do because it's obviously too much of a hassle for you to do it.

Anyone wanna try to start a class action suit against online sellers for bullshit shipping and handling charges? is that possible. Can you sue ebay for allowing it to happen. People will sue for anything, why should I be any different. Didn't every person in America get a small check a few years back from the music industry for some weird class action suit about CDs. We could do it too.

Now I can't buy the toy I want because the cost of shipping it is more than the price of it :( boo on ebay sellers! I'm a good seller, I charge fairly. When I sold a Wii on ebay, I charged him exactly what it cost at the post office to send it out, no more, no less. That's the way it should be. Do we charge our utility companies a handling fee when we take bills to the post office? no. And you don't even HAVE to go to the post office to ship ebay stuff. They will deliver Priority Mail boxes to your door and you can arrange for shipping online so all you do is wait for the mailman, no hassle whatsoever. assholes

It's been a long time since I updated. I've been ranting and going on for months and months and months about how badly I wanted to lose weight and junk, and I just kept getting fatter instead. I kept "starting" to exercise and/or diet, but quit after like 3 days.

But I did it for real now! The month of August was a good one for my body. I went back to Weight Watchers for the first time in a year, and I have a buddy going with me! Sarah and I go on Wed or Tues, depending on which day we're not working. So I've kicked ass at eating well. I've had to dip into my extra flex points every week, sigh, but you still lose weight doing that...just not as quickly.

On top of that, I've been going to kickboxing like twice a week. And when I'm not doing kickboxing, I'm going to the gym with my Weight Watcher buddy. So for $140/month, my body better be rockin' soon. I'm stuck in a contract with kickboxing for a year, so I guess my body will be good for at least a year if I keep this up. I joined another gym with Sarah and we do that all the time. I get at least 45 mins of cardio 5x a week...usually followed by 75 mins of yoga. woot.

So what does all that mean? 15 lbs lost in a month. I honestly don't see it. My pants and stuff are just slightly less tight, but I'd think after 15 lbs I'd be down a size. No. Sigh. I'm very happy with the results, but I only wish I could have dropped a pants size before Vegas.

I also had a fitness evaluation last week. 32% body fat...bad. I'll blame the steroids because the trainer that did my evaluation said I was in better cardiac shape than most people she's ever seen. I have to work 3 times as hard as most everyone else just to get my heart rate up to the point were it burns calories moreso than just walking. Oh, and the back flexibility test I think is totally flawed! I have these long amazon legs and a midget torso, so when I bent over (and yes, I do yoga regularly and can bend in half) I didn't reach shit. I scored almost as low as possible. oh well, I'll show them!

I got my permanent crowns put in...and they're still too big! argh. I may go get the one of the right adjusted again because it's messing up my bite while I eat Gummi Bears. Not that I should be eating gummi bears, but that's beside the point. I love my squishy fruit flavored bears.

Going to Vegas on Thursday. oooh. I've never been before. I have to be at work at 5:45, so I best get to bed

2 posts in a week. I'm obviously on vacation, but said vacation has been ruined.

bad times!
Thursday one of my molars broke in half (and I swallowed it w/o knowing, eew) and so I tried to find a dentist on Friday to see what I needed to do about it.
The dentist office that closes at noon took my cell phone number and said they'd call if they got an opening. They called and told me to come in at 1230. I did. Yay!

So I got there and they tell me I need a crown. ok, no prob. I know they're expensive, so I'm expecting about $300 out of pocket. They notice the tooth across the mouth also with a little chip and advise me that it is very decayed and also will need a crown. Ok, 2 crowns, better than a root canal later.

They give me proposal for the cost and it's in the neighborhood of $2200-$2300. holy hell, is it made of a rare magical substance only found on the moons of Jupiter? there's no way that it can cost that much! The work was over $400 and the fake tooth piece alone is over $600 each. that's highway robbery! There's no way I can afford that.
So they offered financing through Wells Fargo, good bank, I thought they'd never approve me so I said that if I get approval I'll get both crowns that day, if not just the one bad one.

I filled out the paperwork and they told me I'll have approval or denial in less than 5. Five minutes pass, nothing. Fifteen. Thirty. No word! This is good for me because I won't have this extra financial obligation that I don't need and can't afford...and then they say "is your apartment # A11 or A114" and I confirm the correct one and turns out THAT was the reason approval took so long. $2500 credit line. sigh, I didn't need to know that.

Game on. He drills and hacks and pokes and tortures me for hours. Sanding down the tooth and old filling to a nub and rebuilding it with more shitty filling stuff. I hate that. I had one tooth colored filling and that's all I want now, I hate this bullshit silver stuff, but they didn't give me an option this time or with my last dentist. Finally I'm wearing my 2 temp crowns and ready to sign that painful credit slip and go home. Insurance only covers $1000, so I'm obligated for the other $1200ish. ouch.

Needless to say I'll be broke for the next year because that's how long I have to pay it off. I'd rather spend $1200 on ANYTHING else. sigh.

Oh, and when I got home, one of the temps fell OUT. Of course they blamed me, but I hadn't eaten anything at all! I hadn't yet filled my Rx for the Vicodin and my numbness had worn off. Wow I was in PAIN. So I called the emergency pager number for the dentist and crazy enough the guy that just did my work was the on call guy. He told me that he was still in the office (430, they closed at noon) and to come back in.

The dental assistant tried a dozen times to get that temp back on. Each time having to scrape the cement off my painful tooth nub and then blow it with painful cold air. Oh man it was medieval torture. Finally she gave up and made a brand new temp and stuck it in. She said "this one's not coming out" and then bonded it to all the surrounding teeth and my gum. I have one gigantic supertooth on that side now. It still hurts like a bitch, but that should stop soon, I hope. I have a bad feeling that this one will need a root canal :( NOOOOOO. The other side is fine and feels ok.

I can't eat food because I have to gum it with the roof of my mouth or chew with my front teeth. ack. I ate baked beans and yogurt. yum.

So dentist = pain = misery = financial hardship

and people wonder why folks are afraid of the dentist!

and of course the dentist says that if you come in for cleanings then you don't need expensive dental work. So had I come in for regular cleanings these fillings that I got as a child would somehow take up LESS space inside my tooth and let the tooth part grow back. It was inevitable that these broke, the crappy dentist that did these 3 fillings while I was a kid must have been thinking about job security and made these fillings way too large. Every dentist I've been to since then has told me these would need to be replaced with crowns because they're too large.

About 7 years ago the one on the bottom broke and needed a root canal. That's #1 gone, 2 to go. Then the one on the top right chipped a year later, but it was a small chip, no pain, still very toothy-I let it go. Then this one broke and fell out on Thursday (#2 down) and then they told me I needed to crown the other one, (that's 3, no more old shitty fillings for me. Hopefully this will be it for my extensive dental work. I'm guessing the wisdom teeth will need to come out. I have them all in my mouth, but all dentists tell me to get them cut out so they don't become infected. So far they're fine and useful in chewing :) I brush the hell out of them because I don't WANT them to become infected. So far it's been 7 years and they're in good shape...well the first one started growing in then, and since then the other 3 started and all are in fully except the last one, it's just a nub. Enough rambling!

Puppy woke me up at 5 this morning crying. ugh. thanks Puppy. Now I can't go back to sleep. Oh well.

I'm about to join another gym today...specifically so I can take yoga classes again. I figure that's a good thing to counter the kickboxing classes. Unfortunately yoga is only like twice a week at night, and twice a week in the morn or something like that. So with kickboxing, yoga, and Weight Watchers my body is worth $140/ month. This better be worth it!

Which reminds me, I'm officially back on WW as of this week. I'm lifetime, but I haven't been to weigh-in since last September and I'm over my previous "goal weight" that made me lifetime back in 2005. I think I have to pay each week until I get back down to my goal weight, but that's only 7 pounds from where I am now. Back when I started in Feb '05, I set a really really high goal weight so I could hurry up and get into maintenance and then lifetime so I wouldn't have to pay anymore. Once I got to my "goal" weight initially, I lost another 25 lbs while a lifetime member - if that gives you any indication of how high I made the goal. I'll try to update in the next week or so of my loss. I started eating better when I got back from vacation a week ago and lost 8 lbs already :) When I looked at my old WW weigh in card, I realized this morning that my starting weight this time around (8 lbs ago)was exactly the same weight I weighed in at my first time at WW. But when I started WW officially back in Feb 2005, I'd already been doing it myself unofficially and has lost 7 lbs before weighing in my first time.
What I'm trying to say is that my fat ass was as fat as it was when I was my heaviest, yet I am 4 sizes smaller than I was back then. How odd. I still can't believe I'm as big as I was back when I was by biggest. I want to blame the steroids because both of my weight maximums happened while taking prednisone, but now it just feels like an excuse for some reason. Last time I was on Prednisone for a year (Dec '03-Nov '04), this time only for 2 months (June '07-Aug '07) , but I had the same weight gain. oh well, it's going away now!

The place I'm going to for yoga is going to be $100 for 6 months through a program at work, when that program is over I'll probably just pay for yoga classes only there for $10/week, unless I find a real yoga studio with similar prices (not bloody likely!)

Still no tired! but I only slept 3 hours so I should probably curl up with Puppy on the couch and try to sleep some more. I think I'm just so excited about getting skinny again that I can't sleep.

I'm skipping out of work today! Yesterday I went to Crawford-Long for my EGD so that my GI could look at my esophagus and stomach. I was scared to death, but because of the lovely drugs, it was aaaaaaaaaall good. Not a bad experience at all...except for the random crazy spell that almost put me on the ground last night at dinner; hence why I'm missing work today.
Anyway, I have some badness going on in my large intestine, bleeding ulcers and the like, but I figured the top side was ok so I never worried about it...oopsie. My GI said yesterday that I had some impressive erosion and acid refulx disease, especially for someone my age. D'oh! I guess I never noticed a problem because I'm kinda preoccupied with the big one that's several feet down the digestive tract. oh well. I have MORE drugs now to take care of that mess. I think I'll blame Daddy for all of this since he has tummy problems also. I really thought my problems were concentrated towards the end of the GI tract, who woulda thought...

In other news- vacation next week! A week from today is my first of 7 days off for vacation. I can't wait. I've been to Universal a million times, but I'm sure I'll still have a great time. Chris and I both have a season pass now good for 3 months and both Universal Orlando parks.

John Mayer show in a few weeks! mmmmmmm

Sad news-I guess using my laptop w/o the power cable most of the time has taken its toll on my little battery and my poor lappy doesn't have a lot of portable use time. That makes me sad. I should have just been not lazy and plugged the dang thing in when using it at home...that's the only place I use it, I never take my laptop out of the house; I have no excuse for using the battery power! Zod still isn't working, but I also haven't tried to fix him. I have lappy, so I'm happy.

Lots to do today, but I'm supposed to be at work so if it can't be done from the bed, it won't be done today. I may venutre out to Target to pick up my Nexium Rx, but that's a necessary trip outside the confines of the apartment. Hopefully I won't get all dizzy while driving, that dizzy thing last night totally freaked me out. I've been dizzy before, but I've never had to grab onto something to keep from falling down. It would have been a rush had it not freaked me out :)

I guess I'll lie around with the animals, which are really freaking expensive BTW, and pay bills today. Those damn cats...they rejected their litter box this week. I found 2 piles of poop about 3 feet outside the litter box twice this week. I can't believe these bitches are rejecting their old litterbox. I had to go to the pet store and purchase a new one, a new litter catcher mat (their old one is torn to shreds after a year) and another set of bags for the shit locker (like the diaper genie, but for cat excrement) which cost a whopping $70! I should have just gotten the one that cleans itself for that much. I must admit that the litter box brand/model I get for them is the most convenient I've ever ever used in my many years of cat ownership. You don't have to scoop at all, you just roll the dang thing over and it catches the doodoo and peepee in this little trap and you empty the trap. So easy and clean for me!
That reminds me, I guess I can get some laundry done between my lying on the couch and walking to the bathroom trips. I really wanted to go to kickboxing today, but I'm really not up to it.

It's been over a month since I posted. I've been...busy I guess.
Bowser is such a big boy. He's all grown up...and pissing on everything within his reach. I guess I need to get him altered, but I kinda wanted him to keep his balls just in case I got a little girl doxie for him to make babies with. oh well, the pissing is driving me crazy. If I find time to go fabric shopping and whip out the sewing machine, I'll make him a diaper.
When he's not peeing on everything, he's sleeping. Puppy likes to sleep on his back. If you're in the living room, you have to lie on the couch with a good 4 inches between your back and the back of the house so the puppy can climb in that space and do his little roll over to sleep on his back. It's so flippin cute. If there was a way to get up and move while he's sleeping between me and the couch, I'd take a picture.

We've changed hours at work now. I rotate workdays every 2 weeks and work 12 hours a day...so I have every other weekend off (fri, sat, and sun) so wooo!
The problem is that I've been working starting at 3pm for over 2 years...so having to be at work at 5:45 in the morning is weird. I'm having no problem getting up and junk, but I can't go to sleep early. I've tried. This week was my first week on the shift so each night I slept for about 4 hours and took 2 ten minute naps each day. It's so weird. I usually sleep about 8 hrs a night, so this is weird for me, but I'm making it. I've been up for 22 hours now but for some reason I can't get to sleep...and I have a headache. I'm going out for more Tylenol Simply Sleep tomorrow, that always does the trick.
Oh, maybe it's just me, but when I was a little kid and I stayed up way past my bedtime-for some crazy reason my knees would start to hurt. I'd know I'd been up for way too long when that happened because it was a very unique pain that I never feel any other time...and it's been happening every night since I started working days.

Not much else to update. I've had a constant cold for months now, it's weird. Anya's just positioned herself on my damn wrists so I can't type anymore. Thanks Anya

I'm so lacking in Buffy icons that it's not even funny. I'm sure I have a bajillion trillion on my old Gateway I bought 7 years ago and stopped using 3 years ago when I build General Zod, but back then you couldn't have 100 icons so they just went to waste.


Anyone have any extra they don't want? I need Buffy themed icons. And I'm SOOOO making an Icon of my HI GILES tag when it comes sometime in the next 90 days.